A Little Background
When you're young, you are carefree, worry free and just adventurous. I was having a perfectly normal life at the age of 29 when I had excessive bleeding or abnormal bleeding in May 2016. Turns out that myoma got bigger and it was really the culprit of my bleeding. I had blood transfusion then and my partner was kind enough to donate blood for me. I was advised to take OCP pills and it worked for 2 months.
In August 2016, I had prolonged bleeding once again and I found out that my myoma got bigger again 4.49 x 4.48 x 4.22 cm. This time my bleeding was just scary. I had big blood clots the size of my palm and it was just coming out non-stop.
Anyway, I visited my OB and she advised me to undergo hysteroscopy. I researched about it and found out that it was a minimally-invasive procedure. I was positive about this procedure however, I found out that it costs around 100k procedure alone. Fortunately, I have a health card insurance from the company I'm working for. Unfortunately, having a 100k procedure would max out my card balance. I sought for a second opinion from a colleague's OB. I was so happy that my OB was very kind, caring and easy to talk to. I can practically talk to her about anything and she really takes her time to explain to me everything that I need and want to know. She's Dra. Meliza Lampitoc by the way.
Anyway, she advised me to undergo myomectomy instead (given my budget). It's a major surgery and it would require me 2 months to totally recuperate from the procedure. Due to my continuous bleeding she advised me to undergo that procedure right away.
I willingly obeyed (since I want it to be over and done right away) and I was confined on Sept. 28 in preparation for my operation the next day. After having my procedure approved by my health card insurance provider, I went to De Los Santos Medical Center in Quezon City for my operation.
I was given fleet enema by a male nurse to my horror and shame and it quickly took affect in less that 5 minutes. Anyway, I tried to get as much sleep as I could but I just couldn't. I kept on praying that everything will go well. My mom was there to accompany me since my partner had to take care of our son who was not allowed in the hospital for health and safety reasons. I was scheduled to operated at 8 AM the next day so I had to do fasting from 12 MN onwards.
Operation Day
I woke up at 4:30 A.M. and the male nurse gave me fleet enema once again. He said that this is necessary to ensure that I'm "clean". After its effect, I took a cold bath (there was no hot and cold shower) because I knew it would take a long time for me to be able to take a bath once more. lol I changed into my hospital gown and I removed all jewelries. I was also advised to remove my underwear. I prayed the rosary and prayed that my operation will go well.
The nurses came to my room around 6 A.M. They gave me a "pampakalma" I don't know what it was really but they injected it to my right arm which quickly gave a solid, massive and numbing feeling on my arm. I was then wheeled to the OR. My mom gave me a kiss and then I was alone with the nurses. At that time, I was feeling a bit whoozy. The nurse told me not to fight the urge to sleep since this is the effect of the sedative that they gave me.
Then I was in the big operating room and the nurses prepared me for the operation. They checked if I had no nail polish and they shaved everything down there. I remember my anesthesiologist coming and introducing himself to me. I couldn't answer back as I was getting really sleepy. I just remember him telling me "Papatulugin muna kita ha?" and that's it. That was all I remember. I fell right to sleep after that.
I woke up and realized that I was already in the recovery room. I thought that my procedure haven't started yet so I asked the nurse. "Miss tapos na ba?" and she replied, "Yes ma'am tapos na po nasa recovery room na po kayo." and then I fell back to sleep. My mom told me that I was brought back to my room around 1 P.M. She even showed me a photo of the myoma that my OB was able to remove from my uterus. I was just so groggy and really sleepy. I was not allowed to drink or eat anything. My mom gave me wet cotton balls on my mouth just so it won't dry up. I feel asleep the whole day and woke up the next day feeling really really thirsty. My mom told me that while I was groggy, I told her that I wanted to drink a really really cold Coke. A catheter was attached to me so I was really not allowed to stand.
My Way to Recovery
Anyway, I felt well rested the next day although I still had minimal bleeding. I was then allowed to be on soft diet (gelatin, soups, pineapple juice etc.) I forced myself to move and change positions while lying down. After a few hours my catheter and my IV was removed. I then felt a sudden urge to do number two. It was actually a good sign that operation went well. After I reported that to my OB, I was then allowed to eat regular meals. But I didn't have much of an appetite. I wanted to take it slow.
After a few days, I can walk and stand assisted. I walked and walked in the hospital so I can have my blood flowing. For days after, I was discharged from the hospital and my mom took me home to the province so I can recuperate better. Mind you, in my province, the air is so fresh that I can take deep long breaths and wear a jacket because of the cold weather.
My OB advised me to visit her after 10 days so she can check on my stitch. I am very thankful for the love and prayers that everyone has given me. I really felt that I was not alone in the OR and I felt really confident that I will be able to get through it. It was like a million angels were with me at that moment and I really felt that people were praying for my safety. May God bless all of you!
I will continue to write about my recovery on this blog. How about you? Were you able to experience something related to this? Share your story. I can't wait to get to know all of you.
Sunday, October 9, 2016
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
My TOP 10 Obsessions for 2010
1. Glee
Glee never fails to surprise and amuse me. Which is why I voted it number 1 on my list. The funny antics, the storyline and ofcourse the music, I can never get enough of it. I would watch my favorite episodes over and over. (I even bought two GLEE shirts!) I’m a certified GLEEK!
2. LIFE
Life is my favorite website for this year. It’s reading the story behind every picture. For photography and journalism enthusiasts, I recommend www.life.com
3. Healthy Living
People who see me now tell me that I lost weight. I could tell that I did lose some pounds. But I feel really great about it. Fitting into my old pair of jeans, I never felt so carefree about choosing clothes to wear. All I did was to limit my food intake and I walk a lot. I encourage my mom to do number 3. Trust me ma! You can do it!
4. Mystery Case Files
I’ve never been so obsessed with puzzle games before. But the Mystery Case Files game series really got a huge slice in my pie. I finished all the puzzles (with the help of some online cheats as I hate to admit it) I can’t wait to solve more.
5. KPOP
I hear it every morning, when I come home at night, and even in my dreams the sound haunts me! Hahaha. My fancy with KPOP started with my cousin, my brother and my sister singing and dancing KPOP everyday. I admit I was not interested at first, but there was really something about the music that got me. Suddenly I found myself, dancing and singing Korean music (trust me sometimes we really do sound like we were fluent in the language). I even added SEOUL to my top 5 foreign countries to visit in the next 2 years. Saranghae KPOP!
6. Reading all the books I’ve purchased from last year’s
I’m guilty for panic buying books and promising to read all of it asap. It’s hard I tell you, with work and the other stuff that I have to do. But I resolved to reading all the books (consisting of Sweet Valley High, Sweet Valley Twins, the classics such as Emma, The Prince by Machiavelli and Amy Tan’s books) I bought last year before the year ends. So far so good. I just have 16 more books to go (and it’s already December) Wish me luck!
7. My Passport
My nth time to prioritize my passport whew! After staying at DFA for 5 hours, I got my passport delivered to my office. I was so excited with my passport that I thanked my AIR21 courier a lot of times! Now, I’m off to see the world.
8. Our “Corporate” Chorale
We started practicing for our annual Christmas party competition. This year was a chorale competition. My obsession grew after knowing the members, singing wonderful music with them and after spending a lot of times laughing, crying and talking with them. I knew that our bond would last. What we’ve shared was not just a night of music to compete but also a lifetime of memories and friendships that we’ll cherish forever.
9. History
My fascination with anything old and historic got me glued with the holocaust. My boyfriend bought me the complete BBC Docu on Auschwitz and I bought other documentaries on the wonders of Egypt, Life after Man and other features by National Geographic and Discovery Channel.
10. Violin
Thanks to my ever-patient violin teacher, I can now play 3 Christmas Songs together with my brother and sister. It’s never too late to learn new things and I’m excited to learn and discover more.
Glee never fails to surprise and amuse me. Which is why I voted it number 1 on my list. The funny antics, the storyline and ofcourse the music, I can never get enough of it. I would watch my favorite episodes over and over. (I even bought two GLEE shirts!) I’m a certified GLEEK!
2. LIFE
Life is my favorite website for this year. It’s reading the story behind every picture. For photography and journalism enthusiasts, I recommend www.life.com
3. Healthy Living
People who see me now tell me that I lost weight. I could tell that I did lose some pounds. But I feel really great about it. Fitting into my old pair of jeans, I never felt so carefree about choosing clothes to wear. All I did was to limit my food intake and I walk a lot. I encourage my mom to do number 3. Trust me ma! You can do it!
4. Mystery Case Files
I’ve never been so obsessed with puzzle games before. But the Mystery Case Files game series really got a huge slice in my pie. I finished all the puzzles (with the help of some online cheats as I hate to admit it) I can’t wait to solve more.
5. KPOP
I hear it every morning, when I come home at night, and even in my dreams the sound haunts me! Hahaha. My fancy with KPOP started with my cousin, my brother and my sister singing and dancing KPOP everyday. I admit I was not interested at first, but there was really something about the music that got me. Suddenly I found myself, dancing and singing Korean music (trust me sometimes we really do sound like we were fluent in the language). I even added SEOUL to my top 5 foreign countries to visit in the next 2 years. Saranghae KPOP!
6. Reading all the books I’ve purchased from last year’s
I’m guilty for panic buying books and promising to read all of it asap. It’s hard I tell you, with work and the other stuff that I have to do. But I resolved to reading all the books (consisting of Sweet Valley High, Sweet Valley Twins, the classics such as Emma, The Prince by Machiavelli and Amy Tan’s books) I bought last year before the year ends. So far so good. I just have 16 more books to go (and it’s already December) Wish me luck!
7. My Passport
My nth time to prioritize my passport whew! After staying at DFA for 5 hours, I got my passport delivered to my office. I was so excited with my passport that I thanked my AIR21 courier a lot of times! Now, I’m off to see the world.
8. Our “Corporate” Chorale
We started practicing for our annual Christmas party competition. This year was a chorale competition. My obsession grew after knowing the members, singing wonderful music with them and after spending a lot of times laughing, crying and talking with them. I knew that our bond would last. What we’ve shared was not just a night of music to compete but also a lifetime of memories and friendships that we’ll cherish forever.
9. History
My fascination with anything old and historic got me glued with the holocaust. My boyfriend bought me the complete BBC Docu on Auschwitz and I bought other documentaries on the wonders of Egypt, Life after Man and other features by National Geographic and Discovery Channel.
10. Violin
Thanks to my ever-patient violin teacher, I can now play 3 Christmas Songs together with my brother and sister. It’s never too late to learn new things and I’m excited to learn and discover more.
My TOP 10 Obsessions for 2010
1. Glee
Glee never fails to surprise and amuse me. Which is why I voted it number 1 on my list. The funny antics, the storyline and ofcourse the music, I can never get enough of it. I would watch my favorite episodes over and over. (I even bought two GLEE shirts!) I’m a certified GLEEK!
2. LIFE
Life is my favorite website for this year. It’s reading the story behind every picture. For photography and journalism enthusiasts, I recommend www.life.com
3. Healthy Living
People who see me now tell me that I lost weight. I could tell that I did lose some pounds. But I feel really great about it. Fitting into my old pair of jeans, I never felt so carefree about choosing clothes to wear. All I did was to limit my food intake and I walk a lot. I encourage my mom to do number 3. Trust me ma! You can do it!
4. Mystery Case Files
I’ve never been so obsessed with puzzle games before. But the Mystery Case Files game series really got a huge slice in my pie. I finished all the puzzles (with the help of some online cheats as I hate to admit it) I can’t wait to solve more.
5. KPOP
I hear it every morning, when I come home at night, and even in my dreams the sound haunts me! Hahaha. My fancy with KPOP started with my cousin, my brother and my sister singing and dancing KPOP everyday. I admit I was not interested at first, but there was really something about the music that got me. Suddenly I found myself, dancing and singing Korean music (trust me sometimes we really do sound like we were fluent in the language). I even added SEOUL to my top 5 foreign countries to visit in the next 2 years. Saranghae KPOP!
6. Reading all the books I’ve purchased from last year’s
I’m guilty for panic buying books and promising to read all of it asap. It’s hard I tell you, with work and the other stuff that I have to do. But I resolved to reading all the books (consisting of Sweet Valley High, Sweet Valley Twins, the classics such as Emma, The Prince by Machiavelli and Amy Tan’s books) I bought last year before the year ends. So far so good. I just have 16 more books to go (and it’s already December) Wish me luck!
7. My Passport
My nth time to prioritize my passport whew! After staying at DFA for 5 hours, I got my passport delivered to my office. I was so excited with my passport that I thanked my AIR21 courier a lot of times! Now, I’m off to see the world.
8. Our “Corporate” Chorale
We started practicing for our annual Christmas party competition. This year was a chorale competition. My obsession grew after knowing the members, singing wonderful music with them and after spending a lot of times laughing, crying and talking with them. I knew that our bond would last. What we’ve shared was not just a night of music to compete but also a lifetime of memories and friendships that we’ll cherish forever.
9. History
My fascination with anything old and historic got me glued with the holocaust. My boyfriend bought me the complete BBC Docu on Auschwitz and I bought other documentaries on the wonders of Egypt, Life after Man and other features by National Geographic and Discovery Channel.
10. Violin
Thanks to my ever-patient violin teacher, I can now play 3 Christmas Songs together with my brother and sister. It’s never too late to learn new things and I’m excited to learn and discover more.
Glee never fails to surprise and amuse me. Which is why I voted it number 1 on my list. The funny antics, the storyline and ofcourse the music, I can never get enough of it. I would watch my favorite episodes over and over. (I even bought two GLEE shirts!) I’m a certified GLEEK!
2. LIFE
Life is my favorite website for this year. It’s reading the story behind every picture. For photography and journalism enthusiasts, I recommend www.life.com
3. Healthy Living
People who see me now tell me that I lost weight. I could tell that I did lose some pounds. But I feel really great about it. Fitting into my old pair of jeans, I never felt so carefree about choosing clothes to wear. All I did was to limit my food intake and I walk a lot. I encourage my mom to do number 3. Trust me ma! You can do it!
4. Mystery Case Files
I’ve never been so obsessed with puzzle games before. But the Mystery Case Files game series really got a huge slice in my pie. I finished all the puzzles (with the help of some online cheats as I hate to admit it) I can’t wait to solve more.
5. KPOP
I hear it every morning, when I come home at night, and even in my dreams the sound haunts me! Hahaha. My fancy with KPOP started with my cousin, my brother and my sister singing and dancing KPOP everyday. I admit I was not interested at first, but there was really something about the music that got me. Suddenly I found myself, dancing and singing Korean music (trust me sometimes we really do sound like we were fluent in the language). I even added SEOUL to my top 5 foreign countries to visit in the next 2 years. Saranghae KPOP!
6. Reading all the books I’ve purchased from last year’s
I’m guilty for panic buying books and promising to read all of it asap. It’s hard I tell you, with work and the other stuff that I have to do. But I resolved to reading all the books (consisting of Sweet Valley High, Sweet Valley Twins, the classics such as Emma, The Prince by Machiavelli and Amy Tan’s books) I bought last year before the year ends. So far so good. I just have 16 more books to go (and it’s already December) Wish me luck!
7. My Passport
My nth time to prioritize my passport whew! After staying at DFA for 5 hours, I got my passport delivered to my office. I was so excited with my passport that I thanked my AIR21 courier a lot of times! Now, I’m off to see the world.
8. Our “Corporate” Chorale
We started practicing for our annual Christmas party competition. This year was a chorale competition. My obsession grew after knowing the members, singing wonderful music with them and after spending a lot of times laughing, crying and talking with them. I knew that our bond would last. What we’ve shared was not just a night of music to compete but also a lifetime of memories and friendships that we’ll cherish forever.
9. History
My fascination with anything old and historic got me glued with the holocaust. My boyfriend bought me the complete BBC Docu on Auschwitz and I bought other documentaries on the wonders of Egypt, Life after Man and other features by National Geographic and Discovery Channel.
10. Violin
Thanks to my ever-patient violin teacher, I can now play 3 Christmas Songs together with my brother and sister. It’s never too late to learn new things and I’m excited to learn and discover more.
My TOP 10 Obsessions for 2010
1. Glee
Glee never fails to surprise and amuse me. Which is why I voted it number 1 on my list. The funny antics, the storyline and ofcourse the music, I can never get enough of it. I would watch my favorite episodes over and over. (I even bought two GLEE shirts!) I’m a certified GLEEK!
2. LIFE
Life is my favorite website for this year. It’s reading the story behind every picture. For photography and journalism enthusiasts, I recommend www.life.com
3. Healthy Living
People who see me now tell me that I lost weight. I could tell that I did lose some pounds. But I feel really great about it. Fitting into my old pair of jeans, I never felt so carefree about choosing clothes to wear. All I did was to limit my food intake and I walk a lot. I encourage my mom to do number 3. Trust me ma! You can do it!
4. Mystery Case Files
I’ve never been so obsessed with puzzle games before. But the Mystery Case Files game series really got a huge slice in my pie. I finished all the puzzles (with the help of some online cheats as I hate to admit it) I can’t wait to solve more.
5. KPOP
I hear it every morning, when I come home at night, and even in my dreams the sound haunts me! Hahaha. My fancy with KPOP started with my cousin, my brother and my sister singing and dancing KPOP everyday. I admit I was not interested at first, but there was really something about the music that got me. Suddenly I found myself, dancing and singing Korean music (trust me sometimes we really do sound like we were fluent in the language). I even added SEOUL to my top 5 foreign countries to visit in the next 2 years. Saranghae KPOP!
6. Reading all the books I’ve purchased from last year’s
I’m guilty for panic buying books and promising to read all of it asap. It’s hard I tell you, with work and the other stuff that I have to do. But I resolved to reading all the books (consisting of Sweet Valley High, Sweet Valley Twins, the classics such as Emma, The Prince by Machiavelli and Amy Tan’s books) I bought last year before the year ends. So far so good. I just have 16 more books to go (and it’s already December) Wish me luck!
7. My Passport
My nth time to prioritize my passport whew! After staying at DFA for 5 hours, I got my passport delivered to my office. I was so excited with my passport that I thanked my AIR21 courier a lot of times! Now, I’m off to see the world.
8. Our “Corporate” Chorale
We started practicing for our annual Christmas party competition. This year was a chorale competition. My obsession grew after knowing the members, singing wonderful music with them and after spending a lot of times laughing, crying and talking with them. I knew that our bond would last. What we’ve shared was not just a night of music to compete but also a lifetime of memories and friendships that we’ll cherish forever.
9. History
My fascination with anything old and historic got me glued with the holocaust. My boyfriend bought me the complete BBC Docu on Auschwitz and I bought other documentaries on the wonders of Egypt, Life after Man and other features by National Geographic and Discovery Channel.
10. Violin
Thanks to my ever-patient violin teacher, I can now play 3 Christmas Songs together with my brother and sister. It’s never too late to learn new things and I’m excited to learn and discover more.
Glee never fails to surprise and amuse me. Which is why I voted it number 1 on my list. The funny antics, the storyline and ofcourse the music, I can never get enough of it. I would watch my favorite episodes over and over. (I even bought two GLEE shirts!) I’m a certified GLEEK!
2. LIFE
Life is my favorite website for this year. It’s reading the story behind every picture. For photography and journalism enthusiasts, I recommend www.life.com
3. Healthy Living
People who see me now tell me that I lost weight. I could tell that I did lose some pounds. But I feel really great about it. Fitting into my old pair of jeans, I never felt so carefree about choosing clothes to wear. All I did was to limit my food intake and I walk a lot. I encourage my mom to do number 3. Trust me ma! You can do it!
4. Mystery Case Files
I’ve never been so obsessed with puzzle games before. But the Mystery Case Files game series really got a huge slice in my pie. I finished all the puzzles (with the help of some online cheats as I hate to admit it) I can’t wait to solve more.
5. KPOP
I hear it every morning, when I come home at night, and even in my dreams the sound haunts me! Hahaha. My fancy with KPOP started with my cousin, my brother and my sister singing and dancing KPOP everyday. I admit I was not interested at first, but there was really something about the music that got me. Suddenly I found myself, dancing and singing Korean music (trust me sometimes we really do sound like we were fluent in the language). I even added SEOUL to my top 5 foreign countries to visit in the next 2 years. Saranghae KPOP!
6. Reading all the books I’ve purchased from last year’s
I’m guilty for panic buying books and promising to read all of it asap. It’s hard I tell you, with work and the other stuff that I have to do. But I resolved to reading all the books (consisting of Sweet Valley High, Sweet Valley Twins, the classics such as Emma, The Prince by Machiavelli and Amy Tan’s books) I bought last year before the year ends. So far so good. I just have 16 more books to go (and it’s already December) Wish me luck!
7. My Passport
My nth time to prioritize my passport whew! After staying at DFA for 5 hours, I got my passport delivered to my office. I was so excited with my passport that I thanked my AIR21 courier a lot of times! Now, I’m off to see the world.
8. Our “Corporate” Chorale
We started practicing for our annual Christmas party competition. This year was a chorale competition. My obsession grew after knowing the members, singing wonderful music with them and after spending a lot of times laughing, crying and talking with them. I knew that our bond would last. What we’ve shared was not just a night of music to compete but also a lifetime of memories and friendships that we’ll cherish forever.
9. History
My fascination with anything old and historic got me glued with the holocaust. My boyfriend bought me the complete BBC Docu on Auschwitz and I bought other documentaries on the wonders of Egypt, Life after Man and other features by National Geographic and Discovery Channel.
10. Violin
Thanks to my ever-patient violin teacher, I can now play 3 Christmas Songs together with my brother and sister. It’s never too late to learn new things and I’m excited to learn and discover more.
Ever After
I’ve always fancied fairy tales. It talks about beautiful places, people, heroes. princes and princesses the list goes on and on. Adventure is always in the story. Themes would always include heroism, love, forgiveness and family. It’s the kind of story that you would want to delve into because of its endless possibilities. It’s as if you’re invincible to pain, death, anger and harm. Happy ending always ends the tale.
I remember when I was a child I would jump up and down in excitement hearing the phrase “once upon a time…” That phrase would bring back happy childhood memories of my papa reading to us late at night or my aunt mimicking the voices of the characters.
I guess when you grow up, when you feel like you got smarter and wiser to be fooled by such stories that you also become invincible to hearing happy stories. I guess its because you know the reality you’re living in. But that’s what I miss the most. Being amazed by good deeds, dreaming of adventure, waking up in the morning wishing I was in a castle. But life goes on. We realize there is no prince charming to save you from a burning castle, a fairy godmother who would grant you three wishes for the day or that with a snap of a finger all your house’s mess would suddenly be in order.
I miss imagining what happens after “they lived happily ever after”. Did the prince and princess have children, were they together for the rest of their lives or did they grow apart? That’s the thing about fairy tales. There’s always a happy ending. No matter what the protagonist goes through, no matter how powerful and conniving the evil witch is, fate always seem to get things in order. Just how a happy ending should be.
I remember when I was a child I would jump up and down in excitement hearing the phrase “once upon a time…” That phrase would bring back happy childhood memories of my papa reading to us late at night or my aunt mimicking the voices of the characters.
I guess when you grow up, when you feel like you got smarter and wiser to be fooled by such stories that you also become invincible to hearing happy stories. I guess its because you know the reality you’re living in. But that’s what I miss the most. Being amazed by good deeds, dreaming of adventure, waking up in the morning wishing I was in a castle. But life goes on. We realize there is no prince charming to save you from a burning castle, a fairy godmother who would grant you three wishes for the day or that with a snap of a finger all your house’s mess would suddenly be in order.
I miss imagining what happens after “they lived happily ever after”. Did the prince and princess have children, were they together for the rest of their lives or did they grow apart? That’s the thing about fairy tales. There’s always a happy ending. No matter what the protagonist goes through, no matter how powerful and conniving the evil witch is, fate always seem to get things in order. Just how a happy ending should be.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Bukas Palad's New Album Christify
Last Saturday, my family and I watched a concert of the Bukas Palad Choir. I’m literally a fan of liturgical songs and I believe that these meaningful songs play a huge part in the mass. These are songs that empower you, inspire you and brings out emotions that you can’t express. Mass songs played a huge role in my life not only because my late father used to be a church choir organist, but it’s also because those songs gave me a lot of strength during the low points in my life. Anyway Bukas Palad opened the program with the lively “Let Your Praises Be Heard”. I love that song. It made me dance for joy because I felt God’s love right then and there. After a brief introduction the choir sang the immortal compositions of the Jesuits. The first note of Sayo Lamang gave me the chills. I was listening to such beautiful music that it made me cry. The lyrics was so deep and real, added with the accompaniment of a beautiful melody, I just cried. My mom who was seated next to me was also crying. The first part of the concert featured the popular songs while on the second part, they sang songs from their new album Christify. (I bought the CD and the music sheets by the way!) Anyway, one of the choir members said that Christify was about how we could live our lives according to the will of God. He said that giving praises to God does not end with the recessional song, the true challenge begins there. I love all of the songs from Christify. My favorites are Kailan Pa Man, Miserere, Magnificat and Sa Tahanan ng Poon.
My mom usually says that singing church music is twice as good as saying a prayer. Maybe it’s because you get to praise, pray and sing to God at the same time. I met some of the members after the concert and I can’t help but say thank you to them. Truly they have touched many people that night in many ways that they can ever imagine. How wonderful it must be to be a part of something so amazing! After the concert, I was so inspired that I one of the lines from the song “Amare et servire” which they sang kept on playing inside my head. In omnibus Amare et servire Domino.” In everything love and serve the Lord. That’s what I will do exactly. From this moment on, I will do everything for the love and service of God. Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam!
My mom usually says that singing church music is twice as good as saying a prayer. Maybe it’s because you get to praise, pray and sing to God at the same time. I met some of the members after the concert and I can’t help but say thank you to them. Truly they have touched many people that night in many ways that they can ever imagine. How wonderful it must be to be a part of something so amazing! After the concert, I was so inspired that I one of the lines from the song “Amare et servire” which they sang kept on playing inside my head. In omnibus Amare et servire Domino.” In everything love and serve the Lord. That’s what I will do exactly. From this moment on, I will do everything for the love and service of God. Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
A gift from Papa
Last night my siblings, my boyfriend and I watched the world renowned violinist Uto Ughi. Uto showed brilliance with his music. I remember sighing after I heard him play Beethoven's Spring Sonata and his last piece the meditation. I was literally clapping out loud. Many people came to watch the concert but we got our tickets for free. It was such an experience to share that moment with the people I love.
Anyway last night was also my late Papa's birthday. He would have been 46 now. While we were waiting for the shuttle, my sister whispered "Uto is right behind us". Apparently Uto together with his also exceedingly gifted accompanist that night Alexander was waiting for their ride home. I couldn't stop myself from approaching them and asking for their autographs. Uto and Alexander did not hesitate to give us their autographs. They were very friendly and they were even praising each other for their respective performance that night. My boyfriend took our pictures. After that moment my boyfriend told us that he saw Uto carrying his violin with the strap branded Garnieri. Whew! Uto plays with a Stradivarius and a Garnieri by the way. Tow of the finest violins in the world for its rich tone! These violins are so rare that one time a Strad was auctioned it was sold for about 3 Million dollars. I would die to have just one but Uto has two! I believe his violins were made during the 17th century. He deserves it anyway.
It was a gift from Papa. Because we were the only ones who got their autographs and pictures. Everyone was waiting for them at the lobby but apparently they left right after the performance. We were fortunate enough to spot them at the artist's entrance. After our heavenly moment with the two great artists their car was just on time to pick them up. Other people who saw what we did, did not have the chance to get their pictures with the artists. We were so lucky. I feel somehow guilty though because I was in Cloud 9 that I forgot to take the camera from my boyfriend so that he could have his chance of having a souvenir too. I remember him telling me again and again how he admired the pianist during the performance. Sorry hon. I'll make it up to you.
After that we immediately called our mom to tell her our winning moment. I knew my mom was somehow emotional that night because he missed our Papa. Six years after my father's death, sometimes moments like that still happen when you just remember him and you cry because you missed him. Anyway I know Papa did something in heaven that's why God made this whole surprise to us.
Thanks Papa for the gift. We love you and we miss you!
Keep an eye on all of us okay?
Anyway last night was also my late Papa's birthday. He would have been 46 now. While we were waiting for the shuttle, my sister whispered "Uto is right behind us". Apparently Uto together with his also exceedingly gifted accompanist that night Alexander was waiting for their ride home. I couldn't stop myself from approaching them and asking for their autographs. Uto and Alexander did not hesitate to give us their autographs. They were very friendly and they were even praising each other for their respective performance that night. My boyfriend took our pictures. After that moment my boyfriend told us that he saw Uto carrying his violin with the strap branded Garnieri. Whew! Uto plays with a Stradivarius and a Garnieri by the way. Tow of the finest violins in the world for its rich tone! These violins are so rare that one time a Strad was auctioned it was sold for about 3 Million dollars. I would die to have just one but Uto has two! I believe his violins were made during the 17th century. He deserves it anyway.
It was a gift from Papa. Because we were the only ones who got their autographs and pictures. Everyone was waiting for them at the lobby but apparently they left right after the performance. We were fortunate enough to spot them at the artist's entrance. After our heavenly moment with the two great artists their car was just on time to pick them up. Other people who saw what we did, did not have the chance to get their pictures with the artists. We were so lucky. I feel somehow guilty though because I was in Cloud 9 that I forgot to take the camera from my boyfriend so that he could have his chance of having a souvenir too. I remember him telling me again and again how he admired the pianist during the performance. Sorry hon. I'll make it up to you.
After that we immediately called our mom to tell her our winning moment. I knew my mom was somehow emotional that night because he missed our Papa. Six years after my father's death, sometimes moments like that still happen when you just remember him and you cry because you missed him. Anyway I know Papa did something in heaven that's why God made this whole surprise to us.
Thanks Papa for the gift. We love you and we miss you!
Keep an eye on all of us okay?
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Rainy days are here again
It was a hot and sunny day when I woke up. Yeah it was still summer but it's the last week of May. Soon, rainy days will be here again. I was packing my things as I prepare to go to work, ate my breakfast and headed off to work. Then suddenly "drip, drop, drip, drop". It was raining. I couldn't help but to make my face come out of the jeepney's window and marvel at this sight. Rainy days are here again. Suddenly everything became darker. Dark clouds started to fill the city. The jeepney driver even had to open his jeepney lights so that he could see the passengers. One even said"may bagyo yata." The wind was blowing hard and everyone started to complain "wala akong dalang payong!" "Naku wala akong dala na tsinelas" I can't help but to put a smile on my face. I felt so happy that it was raining. Maybe it was because after all the heat and exhaustion for two months, like how it was meant to be, like how God designed it to be. The rain came. It was like it took forever for it to get here but it did.
Maybe the reason why I felt that way is because sometimes in our lives we are face with situations that would make us feel trapped. As if we're never going to get away with it. And that time stops at that moment and we just feel, sad and depressed. Accepting that misfortune is our fate. But the rain reminded me that "it will come" Happy days will come. What I want in my life will come. I was reminded to be patient aand to wait with a hopeful heart. Maybe someday whatever we want will come just when we least expected it.
Thank you Lord for the rain today. If the fulfillment of having what I want would feel like what I felt when I saw the drops of water falling from the sky, then let your will be done. I'm willing to wait...
Maybe the reason why I felt that way is because sometimes in our lives we are face with situations that would make us feel trapped. As if we're never going to get away with it. And that time stops at that moment and we just feel, sad and depressed. Accepting that misfortune is our fate. But the rain reminded me that "it will come" Happy days will come. What I want in my life will come. I was reminded to be patient aand to wait with a hopeful heart. Maybe someday whatever we want will come just when we least expected it.
Thank you Lord for the rain today. If the fulfillment of having what I want would feel like what I felt when I saw the drops of water falling from the sky, then let your will be done. I'm willing to wait...
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Lord teach me to be generous
"Dearest Lord teach me to be generous, to give and not to count the cost, to fight and not to heed the wounds..."
I really love this song. I was just singing at our church choir one Sunday mass when out of nowhere this line came to my head. I don't even know why... Was I feeling the need to be generous? I don't know.
Then I came to realize, I was worrying about my expenses. I would often say when I'm kind of short with my budget "wala na akong pera". This line which my mom hated so much is always my expression when I think of having to pay for a lot of things. My mama would often say "wag sasabihing wala laging meron."
Sometimes we feel like we're giving too much to other people that we don't leave anything or save anything for ourselves. This comes out of our pity. Bigla na lang tayo naaawa sa sarili natin. I would be a hypocrite if I say that money doesn't matter at all. It does matter but it doesn't have to be the top of mind. But reflecting on the song prayer for generosity, sometimes all we could do is to ask the Lord to guide us and help us to be better. What happiness would I feel if someday I would be able to give my all and not ask for anything in return. What freedom it must be! What peace of mind. No strings attached, no holding back just giving all that I am and all that I have. I cling to this thought that someday I would be able to be as generous as God wants me to be. It might take some time...but I'm getting there and I won't stop at nothing.
Here is the song by the way you might want to check this out
Click here
I really love this song. I was just singing at our church choir one Sunday mass when out of nowhere this line came to my head. I don't even know why... Was I feeling the need to be generous? I don't know.
Then I came to realize, I was worrying about my expenses. I would often say when I'm kind of short with my budget "wala na akong pera". This line which my mom hated so much is always my expression when I think of having to pay for a lot of things. My mama would often say "wag sasabihing wala laging meron."
Sometimes we feel like we're giving too much to other people that we don't leave anything or save anything for ourselves. This comes out of our pity. Bigla na lang tayo naaawa sa sarili natin. I would be a hypocrite if I say that money doesn't matter at all. It does matter but it doesn't have to be the top of mind. But reflecting on the song prayer for generosity, sometimes all we could do is to ask the Lord to guide us and help us to be better. What happiness would I feel if someday I would be able to give my all and not ask for anything in return. What freedom it must be! What peace of mind. No strings attached, no holding back just giving all that I am and all that I have. I cling to this thought that someday I would be able to be as generous as God wants me to be. It might take some time...but I'm getting there and I won't stop at nothing.
Here is the song by the way you might want to check this out
Click here
I'm defying gravity!
After months and months of decision making, discerning and practically tossing and turning, I decided to resign from my company and start a new phase in my career. It was so hard at first trying to weigh all my options. But my boss was very kind and supportive of my decision to leave. This was my first job so I was kind of hesitant to leave. I love the people there and I just knew that if I go I would have to start anew.
I would leave people behind and meet new colleagues. I would feel the same feeling that I have when I first stepped into my first office. Somehow I knew things would not be easy but I am certain and somewhat excited to find out what's there for me, what other things could I do or what adventure I'm going to take.
I'm the type of person who's always afraid of taking risks. But I'm not getting any younger. In fact, I'm getting older as time passes by *sniff sniff. But you know what I like it and this time I don't want to live my life with what ifs. I want to say that "I did it." Instead of "I should have done it."
During the time when I was kind of scared whether I was making the right decision, I listen to this song. Defying gravity is from the musical Wicked. This song gave me all the confidence that I need. It gave me so much confidence that I felt like I could do anything...there's nothing holding me back.
Someone once told me that we are the ones who set the limits for ourselves. I agree with that fact though I refuse to stand by it. I'm through accepting limits. My life is too short. And I want to make the most out of it.
There's a great line that I heard from the movie Serendipity wherein a man said “You know the Greeks didn't write obituaries, they only asked one question after a man died, ‘Did he have passion?’” I want to live my life with passion. I want that someday when I die I would say "Here I a God, I did everything I could, I've made the most out of my life...and now I'm ready to go.
I hope you live a life full of passion and taking risks. While you're at it...here's the song I would like to share.
Click here to defy gravity
I would leave people behind and meet new colleagues. I would feel the same feeling that I have when I first stepped into my first office. Somehow I knew things would not be easy but I am certain and somewhat excited to find out what's there for me, what other things could I do or what adventure I'm going to take.
I'm the type of person who's always afraid of taking risks. But I'm not getting any younger. In fact, I'm getting older as time passes by *sniff sniff. But you know what I like it and this time I don't want to live my life with what ifs. I want to say that "I did it." Instead of "I should have done it."
During the time when I was kind of scared whether I was making the right decision, I listen to this song. Defying gravity is from the musical Wicked. This song gave me all the confidence that I need. It gave me so much confidence that I felt like I could do anything...there's nothing holding me back.
Someone once told me that we are the ones who set the limits for ourselves. I agree with that fact though I refuse to stand by it. I'm through accepting limits. My life is too short. And I want to make the most out of it.
There's a great line that I heard from the movie Serendipity wherein a man said “You know the Greeks didn't write obituaries, they only asked one question after a man died, ‘Did he have passion?’” I want to live my life with passion. I want that someday when I die I would say "Here I a God, I did everything I could, I've made the most out of my life...and now I'm ready to go.
I hope you live a life full of passion and taking risks. While you're at it...here's the song I would like to share.
Click here to defy gravity
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
To everyone discerning
Everyday in our lives we are faced with a lot of decision making. What time to wake up? What to wear? Which road to take? Decisions are like doors. You take any door and it leads you to a place different from everything else you've chosen. Sometimes the door would lead you to where you began, sometimes it would lead you to a position that would propel you towards a better life.
Let me share with you some tips that I find to be very helpful during the times when I don't know what to do, or if I know the answer but I'm just too scared to face it or even try.
Since I'm a music lover I listen to liturgical and inspirational music during these tough times. At this moment I'm discerning about something really important. The song "Here I am Lord" really helped me feel confident that whatever I do, no matter where I am, I am exactly where God wants me to be. The song really helped me gain the guts to face head on all the obstacles that come my way. The song is also about answering to God's call. You would find yourself asking yourself "What does God want me to do with my life?"
Here is the link to the avp of the song. Click here
Life is about taking risks. One way or the other, sooner or later we will be able to find out why things happen to us. I hope you find this song helpful and inspiring. God bless everyone!
Let me share with you some tips that I find to be very helpful during the times when I don't know what to do, or if I know the answer but I'm just too scared to face it or even try.
Since I'm a music lover I listen to liturgical and inspirational music during these tough times. At this moment I'm discerning about something really important. The song "Here I am Lord" really helped me feel confident that whatever I do, no matter where I am, I am exactly where God wants me to be. The song really helped me gain the guts to face head on all the obstacles that come my way. The song is also about answering to God's call. You would find yourself asking yourself "What does God want me to do with my life?"
Here is the link to the avp of the song. Click here
Life is about taking risks. One way or the other, sooner or later we will be able to find out why things happen to us. I hope you find this song helpful and inspiring. God bless everyone!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
What happened to Imeem?!
Imeem is one of my favorite websites because I could create a playlist containing all the songs that make my day (God knows how much I need music while working ehem...ehem...)
I had a lot of playlists there from a variety of music I listen to such as classical, alternative, liturgical etc. I was surprised that one day when I clicked on Imeem the page brought me to My Space. I mean I just need to listen to my playlist! I don't want to sign up on My Space!
Anyway I searched the net and here are some of the people who had the same reactions.
Now I'm sad, my playlist is gone forever! And I don't have any time to download all of it! Click here
I had a lot of playlists there from a variety of music I listen to such as classical, alternative, liturgical etc. I was surprised that one day when I clicked on Imeem the page brought me to My Space. I mean I just need to listen to my playlist! I don't want to sign up on My Space!
Anyway I searched the net and here are some of the people who had the same reactions.
Now I'm sad, my playlist is gone forever! And I don't have any time to download all of it! Click here
Monday, January 11, 2010
One day I wore a skirt...
I'm usually the type of girl who would wear whatever I feel is most comfortable to wear. Mu usual work get up would be a blouse with a pair of jeans. One day however, I decided to wear a purple dress which I bought at a local ukay-ukay! :-) Uneasy at first, I started to get the hang of it. I was walking by the corner of our house when a man greeted me good morning. Okay not much of a violent reaction so I just shrugged.
The moment I entered the office my co-worker immediately noticed me and told me how "sexy" I was. I just smiled at laughed at his remarks. I was going down our building when a friend from another office greeted me and asked me if I have a date. Ofcourse I replied no but I was sure the reason why he asked me that is because I was wearing a skirt. I told him I was quite embarrassed at how people especially men seem to act differently that day. He just told me "well maganda kasi". Hmmm ok now I get it. For the nth time co-workers male and female noticed me that day and I just felt comfortable about it.
Change is somehow nice sometimes... You're not just doing it to be noticed but to bring something a little extra to yourself, for you to look good and feel good. No matter what change it is that you're planning to do, make sure that it's for the better. Have a great day!
The moment I entered the office my co-worker immediately noticed me and told me how "sexy" I was. I just smiled at laughed at his remarks. I was going down our building when a friend from another office greeted me and asked me if I have a date. Ofcourse I replied no but I was sure the reason why he asked me that is because I was wearing a skirt. I told him I was quite embarrassed at how people especially men seem to act differently that day. He just told me "well maganda kasi". Hmmm ok now I get it. For the nth time co-workers male and female noticed me that day and I just felt comfortable about it.
Change is somehow nice sometimes... You're not just doing it to be noticed but to bring something a little extra to yourself, for you to look good and feel good. No matter what change it is that you're planning to do, make sure that it's for the better. Have a great day!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Gleefully Glee!
Recently I'm so hooked up with Glee's Soundtrack and as usual the tracks keep on playing and playing on my head. There's something about music that makes you feel like you're not alone, that someone out there is feeling the same way you do. Anyway, I highly recommend that you guys listen to the soundtrack of Glee arrangements are very good and the collection of songs itself is excellent.
Music is somehow my life saver, other than God ofcourse. :-) For example when a co-worker goes on bragging and whining about his/her life I put on my trusty earphones and everything just seems like a perfect day...nothing could bring me down. When I feel like I can't write anything I click on my classical playlist and lo! and behold I'm typing as fast as the pianist playing a Mozart piece.
My favorites on the soundtrack is Somebody to Love, Defying Gravity, Don't Stop Believin, Lean on me and Keep Holdin on. Lots of favorites so I suggest you try listening to it. The series by the way is also good. I watch it on JackTV.
www.amazon.com/Glee-Music-1-Cast/dp/B002NJ8X9G - for Glee's soundtrack Vol 1
www.amazon.com/Glee-Music-2-Cast/dp/B002RL8V1U - for Vol 2
Music is somehow my life saver, other than God ofcourse. :-) For example when a co-worker goes on bragging and whining about his/her life I put on my trusty earphones and everything just seems like a perfect day...nothing could bring me down. When I feel like I can't write anything I click on my classical playlist and lo! and behold I'm typing as fast as the pianist playing a Mozart piece.
My favorites on the soundtrack is Somebody to Love, Defying Gravity, Don't Stop Believin, Lean on me and Keep Holdin on. Lots of favorites so I suggest you try listening to it. The series by the way is also good. I watch it on JackTV.
www.amazon.com/Glee-Music-1-Cast/dp/B002NJ8X9G - for Glee's soundtrack Vol 1
www.amazon.com/Glee-Music-2-Cast/dp/B002RL8V1U - for Vol 2
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
More than one inspiration for all
Last night I watched the movie Julie and Julia and I was so inspired by the movie that it left me thoughts that my mind carried on until the morning. The movie was about Julie, a married woman who finds comfort in cooking the 524 recipes by Julia Child. Julie felt so stuck up with her job at a call center. She was about to turn thirty and all her friends are successful with their career. In a way I kind of feel like I'm Julie. Everyone seems to be more than her, she felt fat and she can't seem to finish anything she started. With her husband's help she was able to find her passion in cooking and use it as her comfort zone. The movie was all about finding yourself and being saved by another person's dream. Each one of us has their own Julia Child. Whether it may be your relative or a person who doesn't even know you. We have a lot of frustrations in life and sometimes we don't even know what we're doing or why we're even here in the first place. But the movie gives us the inspiration and the hope that in there is a purpose for everything and in God's time every question will be answered. Being a music lover, a book lover and ofcourse and avid movie goer, I feel like in some way I'm being saved by those things in some ways.
Those things give me the words and the emotions that I alone cannot express. These things... they taught me how to feel. I cry over the music of Rachmaninoff, Chopin and Morricone. I dream over the stories of Jane Austen, Edith Wharton and Shakespeare. I relate myself to movies made with much heart and honesty. And for these things, I have a lot of people to thank. They inspire me in so many ways and they give me the hope that I need in moments where I feel like my time is running out and I didn't do anything about my life.
Until the time comes that I feel like I've really accomplished anything like Julie or Julia, I'll keep on reading, writing, listening and watching. Just a spark of hope is what I really need to keep keep believing.
Those things give me the words and the emotions that I alone cannot express. These things... they taught me how to feel. I cry over the music of Rachmaninoff, Chopin and Morricone. I dream over the stories of Jane Austen, Edith Wharton and Shakespeare. I relate myself to movies made with much heart and honesty. And for these things, I have a lot of people to thank. They inspire me in so many ways and they give me the hope that I need in moments where I feel like my time is running out and I didn't do anything about my life.
Until the time comes that I feel like I've really accomplished anything like Julie or Julia, I'll keep on reading, writing, listening and watching. Just a spark of hope is what I really need to keep keep believing.
Monday, March 23, 2009
A year after my graduation
It's been a year since my graduation and I don't think a lot about my life has changed. Sure...I landed on a job. I'm making money and I'm capable of supporting my family with the expenses. What could be more dramatic than seeing my sister graduate from her school. I'm a year older than she is and believe me after I saw her march towards the stage...I panicked. Not because I was jealous of her or anything. I love my sister. It's just that I realized that time really does fly so fast. A year ago I was wearing my "toga" and now she's the one wearing her own. Hmm....
What did I do for the past year of my life...although a lot of things happened still I don;t see any change in me. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
What I admire most about my sister was when my mom talked to me and told me that my sister told her that she was going to take her masters this coming June. I was like Whoah! I wanted that! But I never thought how I could have helped my family if I took my masters right after my graduation. I admire her for taking control of her life.
My mom, my best friend, noticing how my face must've looked like told me "You should take your masters too. I know you want to." That was a GO signal for me. But at the back of my mind I know that taking my masters would have to mean that I would have to word harder for me to able to balance my work, my studies and my family. Not to mention to budget my money for the three mentioned.
My mama advised me to browse he net and see if there are any scholarships I could apply into. If there's anyone of you who knows a graduate school that offers scholarships for their students please let me know.
Right now...my decision is that I'll also be taking my masters as soon as possible.
What I realized is that as the eldest in the family..I could really be carried away with all the dreams I have for my family. I don't want to get to the point that one day, when I'm old I would realize that I forgot to make my own dreams come true.
Attending graduate school won't let me forget my responsibilities to my family...it's really a matter of juggling.
What did I do for the past year of my life...although a lot of things happened still I don;t see any change in me. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
What I admire most about my sister was when my mom talked to me and told me that my sister told her that she was going to take her masters this coming June. I was like Whoah! I wanted that! But I never thought how I could have helped my family if I took my masters right after my graduation. I admire her for taking control of her life.
My mom, my best friend, noticing how my face must've looked like told me "You should take your masters too. I know you want to." That was a GO signal for me. But at the back of my mind I know that taking my masters would have to mean that I would have to word harder for me to able to balance my work, my studies and my family. Not to mention to budget my money for the three mentioned.
My mama advised me to browse he net and see if there are any scholarships I could apply into. If there's anyone of you who knows a graduate school that offers scholarships for their students please let me know.
Right now...my decision is that I'll also be taking my masters as soon as possible.
What I realized is that as the eldest in the family..I could really be carried away with all the dreams I have for my family. I don't want to get to the point that one day, when I'm old I would realize that I forgot to make my own dreams come true.
Attending graduate school won't let me forget my responsibilities to my family...it's really a matter of juggling.
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