Lord teach me to be generous

"Dearest Lord teach me to be generous, to give and not to count the cost, to fight and not to heed the wounds..."

I really love this song. I was just singing at our church choir one Sunday mass when out of nowhere this line came to my head. I don't even know why... Was I feeling the need to be generous? I don't know.

Then I came to realize, I was worrying about my expenses. I would often say when I'm kind of short with my budget "wala na akong pera". This line which my mom hated so much is always my expression when I think of having to pay for a lot of things. My mama would often say "wag sasabihing wala laging meron."

Sometimes we feel like we're giving too much to other people that we don't leave anything or save anything for ourselves. This comes out of our pity. Bigla na lang tayo naaawa sa sarili natin. I would be a hypocrite if I say that money doesn't matter at all. It does matter but it doesn't have to be the top of mind. But reflecting on the song prayer for generosity, sometimes all we could do is to ask the Lord to guide us and help us to be better. What happiness would I feel if someday I would be able to give my all and not ask for anything in return. What freedom it must be! What peace of mind. No strings attached, no holding back just giving all that I am and all that I have. I cling to this thought that someday I would be able to be as generous as God wants me to be. It might take some time...but I'm getting there and I won't stop at nothing.


Here is the song by the way you might want to check this out

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I'm defying gravity!

After months and months of decision making, discerning and practically tossing and turning, I decided to resign from my company and start a new phase in my career. It was so hard at first trying to weigh all my options. But my boss was very kind and supportive of my decision to leave. This was my first job so I was kind of hesitant to leave. I love the people there and I just knew that if I go I would have to start anew.

I would leave people behind and meet new colleagues. I would feel the same feeling that I have when I first stepped into my first office. Somehow I knew things would not be easy but I am certain and somewhat excited to find out what's there for me, what other things could I do or what adventure I'm going to take.

I'm the type of person who's always afraid of taking risks. But I'm not getting any younger. In fact, I'm getting older as time passes by *sniff sniff. But you know what I like it and this time I don't want to live my life with what ifs. I want to say that "I did it." Instead of "I should have done it."

During the time when I was kind of scared whether I was making the right decision, I listen to this song. Defying gravity is from the musical Wicked. This song gave me all the confidence that I need. It gave me so much confidence that I felt like I could do anything...there's nothing holding me back.

Someone once told me that we are the ones who set the limits for ourselves. I agree with that fact though I refuse to stand by it. I'm through accepting limits. My life is too short. And I want to make the most out of it.

There's a great line that I heard from the movie Serendipity wherein a man said “You know the Greeks didn't write obituaries, they only asked one question after a man died, ‘Did he have passion?’” I want to live my life with passion. I want that someday when I die I would say "Here I a God, I did everything I could, I've made the most out of my life...and now I'm ready to go.

I hope you live a life full of passion and taking risks. While you're at it...here's the song I would like to share.

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